Friday, April 21, 2006

My Limited Life

I limit myself and my life. I think, "I can't do that" There should be no such word as can't--it's really "won't". I limit what God can do in my life by my fears and all those are based on is not wanting to look stupid. I know the Lord has much more in store for me. God wants to increase me–He wants to give me more wisdom to make better decisions. He wants to give me a stronger walk so I can overcome my frustration and outbursts. Yesterday He turned on another lightbulb when I spoke (once again)without thinking first. I realized I am often speaking out of emotion instead of thought. Then I say things that I regret saying and even with an apology, cannot really ever take it back. That emotion is based on old crap in my life, not the present! Get unstuck from that old rut of outbursts and apologies. That's not all there is to life. He wants to give me His strength to control my outbursts, so I can be a blessing to others. God has new frontiers for me to explore and higher mountains to climb! So I can say with great confidence that my best days are come.

Proverbs says, "The path of the righteous gets brighter and brighter and brighter." If I'm going to start experiencing these new victories, I must do my part and start thinking the way God thinks. Think positive, find the good in all things. Start expecting the miracles!

Father, sometimes the frustration of the moment consumes me and I lose sight of Your will for me. Let me dig to the root of where that comes from. Search me and remove that diseased part of me. I am ready to experience the wonderful things you have in store for me!


Diana said...

I think it's awesome what God is doing in your life. He is so gentle and wonderful. There are times when He disciplines us and prunes us, but the best part is being changed and healed by our Father. It sounds like He is really blessing you.

As soon as I get around to buying blank cds I will send you a copy of the song I wrote called "God's Hospital" I think I played it for you, Ma, and Gramma a while back. Anyway, I still have to send you that book by Madeleine L' Engle too. I will get in gear for that next week. This weekend I am hanging with the church ladies. :)

Love you, Auntee!

Carol said...

We share the same struggle. I eventually asked God to take control of my mouth because I wasn't doing a very good job of it myself. Shortly after that, I heard something that made me realize that my mouth was just spigot for what was going on in my heart. Since I've asked Him to change my heart, I notice my mouth isn't spewing forth icky stuff as much as it once did because there's not as much gunk in there to come out anymore. Make sense? He's still got a lot of work to do in me, but it's getting better all the time.

Carol said...

Sometimes all this growth comes with a bit of pain, but it's oh, so worth it to become the person He wants us to be! Grow on, sister!

Barbara said...

Carol is so right. Word says 'out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaketh.' What goes in has to come out. I agree, others can bring out the worst in you - had it to happen to me the other night. Found myself arguing with my older brother over something he had wrong - I was right, but he didn't think so. I let it bother me too much, as my younger brother tells me. But, satan knows when to dig at you, and who can unravel you at the seams!